“Often we pass beside happiness without seeing it,
without looking at it, or even if we have seen and looked at it without recognizing it.”
Alexandre Dumas – The Count of Monte Cristo
There is a softness that threads its way into our spring- time hearts. The ground softens, the earth awakens, and our souls dance in the season’s awakening. There is such a mystery to the world. Certainly science explains much of life’s truths, and yet there remains the realities of the unknown. Could it be that perhaps by design there are not answers for everything just yet? Could it be that there is a priceless gift nestled within that mystery which allows our very spirits to cling onto AWE and WONDER?
For as long as I can remember I have reveled in the joy of awe. By design or by default I am a girl who loves God’s great earth and His creation. For as long as I can remember my soul has felt tethered to His world, to His creatures, to HIM.
Pastor Kevin (or as I fondly call him, “PK”) asked me to introduce myself to his Calvary family. It seems as if I am a bit of an unknown to his people. Honestly, it is a bit of an awkward task, to talk about oneself, and yet the inquiry has produced in me all kinds of questions. What would you like to know about a small town country girl? How would I best paint a picture of myself, and what would satisfy your curiosities? I began to wonder about such things, realizing that my not knowing you produces an unknown of how I might best introduce “me”. Nevertheless…
I am 5’9″. I weigh anywhere from 150 – 160 pounds, more or less depending upon if Dairy Queen is open yet or not. I grew up right here in Rochester, Minnesota. I have two older brothers who tortured me as a child, but, alas, love me as a friend. I have amazing parents and a wild quirky family with whom I fit in quite well. Our household consists of two leggeds and a delightful herd of four leggeds. I am a grease – to – glitter kind of girl. I work hard, I play hard, and I try to find happiness anywhere I can. I have walked in the valley and discovered that lilies indeed do grow there, and I have climbed to the mountain tops to sing and to dance on high. I have sojourned my way along God’s great earth and I have tried my best to really live and to really love. I love Kevin Barnhart. I love Mitchell, I love Alex and I love Grace. I am certain that I will grow to love each of you as we are able to know one another.
All that being said, if there was one thing that I would want you to know about me, if all the other details were washed away, if it didn’t matter at the sunset of a day if I was 5’9″, 5″11″, or 5′, if it didn’t matter where I worked or for whom, if it didn’t matter what my favorite color was or the size of my shoes, if it was of no consequence the length of my horribly long run – on sentences, my terrible grammar or miserable spelling skills, if what you were really interested in was knowing my heart, well, the most succinct snap shot I could give you of me is this: there is only one thing in this world that my heart beats for faster then your one and only Pastor Kevin, and that is our one and only GOD. I love Jesus more than anything else in all the world. I am not perfect. I am fallible and I am small. I am profoundly undeserving. And yet God chose me. He chose you. He chose us! And that, my friends, my brothers and sisters in Christ, that is a mystery that renders all of my words insufficient and brings me to my knees. The details might be interesting, but the heart of the matter, the foundation of all things “me”, rests in my heart’s deepest desire to love, to know and to serve Him.
I love so much of Scripture that I am bound to say, “Oh! That is my favorite!” more often than not. Allow me to weave one of my many, many, many, MANY favorite texts into this small story: “But the Lord said to Samuel, ‘Do not look on his appearance or on his height or stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks at the outward appearance, but The Lord looks on the heart.” (1 Samuel 16:7)
Of course, I understand that all this being said, you still may be interested in more of my nooks and crannies and may be even a little curious about all things boringly Bekah. So if you want to know more, just remember, nothing says, “Let’s talk,” like a German chocolate blizzard from DQ, basically any kind of sugar, or Pastor Kevin’s pop- corn. I mean, who wouldn’t give up their life’s secrets for something as delightful as that?
“No man is an island entire of itself,
every man is a piece of the continent,
a part of the main.” — John Donne